In the beginning of my walk with God
Has this Christian life been difficult? Yes and no. If there was any difficulty it lay with my stubborn spirit and not with the Spirit of God/truth. with the greatest enthusiasm I poured "myself" into the scriptures. Studied Greek, OT languages and different translations and committed to memory thousands of scriptures. While attending the last church group I spent every spring, summer and early fall, as the weather permitted, out door to door with my Pastor. KJV Bible in hand we attempted to purge the temples of God of their false doctrines and present what we were so righteously presenting as the truth. As I have noted before on other posts with my replies, I was haughty against God's Holy Mountain and quit going door to door.
We spent two more years with this small group and received several personal prophesies concerning the ministries and gifts that were set within us. Eventually God indicated that we were to be set on a new path and had to leave this group. Most of the individuals in that group had thought we had left to start our own church, that was far from the truth. It is interesting that when you follow a man, no matter how spiritual he is, when he passes on those that followed soon fell away. I personally discovered from that experience to be more careful that I follow God and His Spirit revealed through His Word made flesh. I find it comforting that His Word contains fathomless truths that can be explored and brought to fruition in one's life as one abides in Him.
As time passed I found that I had to leave behind the main stream orthodoxies and many of their belief systems. I discovered far more Pharisees, Sadducees and biblical lawyers within them then I wanted to. The more I took up and bore my cross and followed Him the less desire I had to serve self and this world.
1 Timothy 5:21-23, I charge thee before God, and the Lord Jesus Christ, and the elect angels, that thou observe these things without preferring one before another, doing nothing by partiality. Lay hands suddenly on no man, neither be partaker of other men's sins: keep thyself pure. Drink no longer water, but use a little wine for thy stomach's sake and thine often infirmities.
I found it odd at first that a person would be instructed to not drink water but a little wine. As I reflected upon this I began to be quickened other scriptures that shed light upon this idea.
John 2 1:11, And the third day there was a marriage in Cana of Galilee; and the mother of Jesus was there: And both Jesus was called, and his disciples, to the marriage. And when they wanted wine, the mother of Jesus saith unto him, They have no wine. Jesus saith unto her, Woman, what have I to do with thee? mine hour is not yet come. His mother saith unto the servants, Whatsoever he saith unto you, do it. And there were set there six waterpots of stone, after the manner of the purifying of the Jews, containing two or three firkins apiece. Jesus saith unto them, Fill the waterpots with water. And they filled them up to the brim. And he saith unto them, Draw out now, and bear unto the governor of the feast. And they bare it. When the ruler of the feast had tasted the water that was made wine, and knew not whence it was: (but the servants which drew the water knew) the governor of the feast called the bridegroom, And saith unto him, Every man at the beginning doth set forth good wine; and when men have well drunk, then that which is worse: but thou hast kept the good wine until now. This beginning of miracles did Jesus in Cana of Galilee, and manifested forth his glory; and his disciples believed on him.
Matthew 9:17 Neither do men put new wine into old bottles: else the bottles break, and the wine runneth out, and the bottles perish: but they put new wine into new bottles, and both are preserved.
Mark 14:22-25, And as they did eat, Jesus took bread, and blessed, and brake it, and gave to them, and said, Take, eat: this is my body. And he took the cup, and when he had given thanks, he gave it to them: and they all drank of it. And he said unto them, This is my blood of the new testament, which is shed for many. Verily I say unto you, I will drink no more of the fruit of the vine, until that day that I drink it new in the kingdom of God.
John 6:53-57, Then Jesus said unto them, Verily, verily, I say unto you, Except ye eat the flesh of the Son of man, and drink his blood, ye have no life in you. Whoso eateth my flesh, and drinketh my blood, hath eternal life; and I will raise him up at the last day. For my flesh is meat indeed, and my blood is drink indeed. He that eateth my flesh, and drinketh my blood, dwelleth in me, and I in him. As the living Father hath sent me, and I live by the Father: so he that eateth me, even he shall live by me.
Luke 17:20,21, And when he was demanded of the Pharisees, when the kingdom of God should come, he answered them and said, The kingdom of God cometh not with observation: Neither shall they say, Lo here! or, lo there! for, behold, the kingdom of God is within you.
John 15:23, If ye love me, keep my commandments. And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you for ever; Even the Spirit of truth; whom the world cannot receive, because it seeth him not, neither knoweth him: but ye know him; for he dwelleth with you, and shall be in you. I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you. Yet a little while, and the world seeth me no more; but ye see me: because I live, ye shall live also. At that day ye shall know that I am in my Father, and ye in me, and I in you. He that hath my commandments, and keepeth them, he it is that loveth me: and he that loveth me shall be loved of my Father, and I will love him, and will manifest myself to him. Judas saith unto him, not Iscariot, Lord, how is it that thou wilt manifest thyself unto us, and not unto the world. Jesus answered and said unto him, If a man love me, he will keep my words: and my Father will love him, and we will come unto him, and make our abode with him.
Hebrews 9:28 So Christ was once offered to bear the sins of many; and unto them that look for him shall he appear the second time without sin unto salvation.
Hebrews 12:22-27, But ye are come unto mount Sion, and unto the city of the living God, the heavenly Jerusalem, and to an innumerable company of angels, To the general assembly and church of the firstborn, which are written in heaven, and to God the Judge of all, and to the spirits of just men made perfect, And to Jesus the mediator of the new covenant, and to the blood of sprinkling, that speaketh better things than that of Abel. See that ye refuse not him that speaketh. For if they escaped not who refused him that spake on earth, much more shall not we escape, if we turn away from him that speaketh from heaven: Whose voice then shook the earth: but now he hath promised, saying, Yet once more I shake not the earth only, but also heaven. And this word, Yet once more, signifieth the removing of those things that are shaken, as of things that are made, that those things which cannot be shaken may remain.
I have learned to drink no longer water but a little wine for my stomachs sake and my often infirmities. I was no longer a waterpot of stone containing water. I recognized of Whom I had to do and Who's kingdom and temple He desired to dwell in. I also discovered a process and pattern of discovery of the many mysteries contained "within" the literal printed word. The metaphysical, allegorical, spiritually discerned and non-physically understood things of God.